My vertigo has substantially subsided. I only feel it here and there in certain circumstances. I don’t think I’d go on the spinning 'tea cup ride' at Disneyland just yet though.

The MRI report was negative. No tumors or anything of that nature in my brain. I have copies on hand to prove it. I saw my ENT doctor on Tuesday to discuss the results. He also mentioned again about putting gold implants in my right eyelid to weigh it down to a closed position. I don’t think I’d like that because I use that eye a lot to see with, even if it is blurry.

The doctor also mentioned referring me to another doctor who could do some surgery on my face so my mouth wouldn’t droop.

All this talk is really making it sound like I’ll never recover. I feel like I’m just accepting the fact that half my face will be paralyzed for the rest of my life. This isn’t good because I’m a firm believer in that what you think about and wish for will happen, and all of your actions will put you toward those thoughts and dreams. I’m hurting myself by accepting my situation.

I must keep in mind that it hasn’t even been three months yet and recovery taking three to six months is pretty standard. I could wake up any day and see my smiling face. Then I’d smile at the world.