Good day for the most part. In the morning, Sandra took me shopping to buy a gift for some friends expecting their first baby. Toys R Us is not the best place to be while experiencing vertigo. It felt like all these people and carts were coming at me. I had to get out of there quick.

Another friend came to visit in the afternoon. We had a great time talking and catching up. My face actually hurt from talking so much, but it was well worth it.

I turned off the hall light and walked to the bedroom in the dark. Something I have always been good at until recently. I actually did okay; wasn’t as dizzy at I thought I’d be. After getting into bed, my ear started having those stabbing, sharp pains really bad. Another pain pill down the hatch.

Well three weeks have gone by. I have no change whatsoever in my facial movement. Still nothing. But it’s probably too soon to expect anything at this point.

We’re supposed to go to a family baby shower today, but I don’t know if I’m up to it. It’s one thing going out in public and having strangers see my face, but it’s another thing having a big bunch of friends see me all at once. I’m nervous. On the other hand, getting a whole bunch of friends seeing my condition for the first time can be a good thing in that it would happen all at once.

That reminds me of a funny story that happened back when I was 19 and working at an insurance company. While getting dressed in the dark one morning, I accidentally put on two different shoes; one blue tennis shoe and one brown shoe. I didn’t realize this until I was pushing away from my desk at work to get a file. Instead of each co-worker, one by one, finding out, I stood up and announced to everyone my goofy mishap. (hehehe) I just wanted to get it over with.

There are times when I’m holding the baby, and he grabs at my face or knocks his head against my face and I want to scream in agony. But I can’t cause I’d scare the poor little guy. So I have to bite my tongue (not literally) and quietly say 'ouch.' I don’t know when this facial pain is supposed to clear up.

We went to the family baby shower. All of my friends and co-workers were very supportive as I knew they’d be. It was so good to see everyone. My nervousness was silly, but it was there.

I’ve noticed that when I’m anywhere else but home, I have more of a tendency to stumble dizzily about and be disoriented. At first when we got to the party, all the people and voices were a bit overwhelming. Of course, many of the people there work in a profession where they need to project their voices, so they tend to be rather loud all the time. Things settled down a bit after a while, and I had a really great time.

I put less ointment in my eye last night so this morning I didn’t have as much left over to impair my vision. I still can’t see, but it’s only because I can’t blink. If I blink using my finger, I can see clearly for a few seconds then it gets blurry again. I hope I don’t mess up my eyesight more because my right eye may be trying to compensate and see better. Does that make any sense? I’m going to the eye doctor today. We’ll see he has to say about that.

Feeling good today. I’d feel totally normal if it weren’t for the ever present vertigo and eye blurriness. My ear has been bothering me a lot too. I get a tremendous urge to scratch it. Instead I’ve carefully used a Q-tip for some itch relief. I also feel terrible ear pain in the evenings and during the night. Thankfully the ear pain isn’t happening during the day.

I spoke too soon; major ear pain in the afternoon. Feels like I have a toothache too.

Went to the eye doctor. He was very pleased with my right eye’s condition. I guess last week my eye was rather irritated before I started using the better eye drops. Since my left eye is doing most of the seeing now, I asked if that was going to cause a change in my eyesight. He said it wouldn’t. I don’t need to go back to the eye doctor for a month unless I’m having any problems.

I was super dizzy the whole time we were out. And I was still spinning when we got home. I almost fell out of my chair at the dinner table.

I’ve been home all day, so I haven’t had any excessive dizziness. I’ve been online a lot, so my eye is really bothering me. I need to give it a rest. I’ve been on other RHS websites with message boards. I’m trying to find anyone who’s been pregnant while suffering from or recovering from RHS. So far no replies.

My mommies group came over again. They’ve been coming to my house so the babies can play together, and since I can’t drive. I’m very lucky to have such good friends. I really appreciate all they’ve done for me. Hopefully I’ll be able to drive sometime soon.

I got a reply on one of the sites regarding pregnancy and RHS. I man who is a dentist suggested I search JAMA and the New England Journal of Medicine for articles containing 'zoster' and 'fetus'. I tried this, and the JAMA had zero articles and the New England Journal of Medicine had one article, but so far I can’t read it because they want to charge me for it. It has no excerpt, so I can’t see what’s in the article.

I called my Perinatal office to see if they have any answers for me. They want me to come in and meet with one of the doctors. Now I’m trying to get a hold of my OB/Gyn doctor to see if she can give me a referral to the Perinatologist.

I still need to ask my ENT doctor what his opinion on this matter is.

It seems like there has been no change in my vertigo for days. I feel just as dizzy as I did a week ago. Maybe I should get out more and force my body to compensate for the extra dizziness. I need to get out more anyway. I’m starting to get stir crazy in here. I feel like I’ve been home since last July when I went on bedrest.

Good news. I spoke to my ENT doctor, and he said that once the virus goes away, that’s it. It shouldn’t come back. So I shouldn’t have any pregnancy problems. Yeah! I suppose I should wait until my head stops spinning before getting pregnant. I also need to get really healthy again and get my body back in shape. Lately, I haven’t been eating very much or very well for that matter. With the pregnancy and breastfeeding, I’d eaten very healthy for so long. I just want to eat at McDonalds a few times before becoming a health nut again.