I woke up feeling very cranky and tired Monday morning. I had no energy and my vertigo reared its ugly little head again. I almost fell down the stairs when I came down for breakfast! I had to scoot down them on my butt. I was crabby all day long.

Couldn’t figure out why but I woke up Tuesday with a horrible cold. The worst one I have had in years!!! I had a fever that started Tuesday afternoon.

Fever didn’t go away until Thursday evening. I think I may have gotten a bit carried away last week. I was miserable all week long. My husband and I got tickets to see our favorite band a few months ago and I didn’t want to miss it. We actually got them for our anniversary back in June and I hoped that I would be better (RHS gone… ha, ha) by now. We met five years ago at a one of this bands shows and we haven’t missed their yearly stops yet. I was feeling a little better by Sunday so I went. I enjoyed the music but I had a terrible time. I was so insecure. I am use to being the life of the party but I just didn’t want to be noticed. I can’t wear makeup because of my eye and I just didn’t feel like getting all dressed up so I just wore jeans and a t-shirt and borrowed one of my husbands hats that I pulled down low. The crowd was disorienting and I ended up crying all of the way home. I don’t think that I was ready to be that out in public! I am even more depressed than I was before! I feel left out of everything that our friends are doing even though I do not expect them to stop going out because I can’t go! I feel like I am being very irrational. I am angry that this has happened to me. I just want my life back to normal!