I was still feeling very drained from my cold this week. I have also been having trouble sleeping again. I can’t sleep when I am sick like most normal people do and this has messed up my sleep cycle again. I did no housework and have been very depressed. I feel like I have been in a self-inflicted social coma! I have started having anxiety attacks. I did go to my son’s open house for his middle school. I can’t believe that my only baby is in middle school! That wasn’t so bad. It was nice to meet his teachers and most of the parents know what is going on with me so none really stared or anything. We made plans to go visit my family and help my grandma with some unpacking and moving a few things. My grandparents sold their house about a week before we found out that grandpa was sick. No one expected it to go that fast but it wasn’t even a full month before he died. Poor grandma was taking care of him at home with hospice during the time that she would have otherwise been getting ready to move. It was an emotional weekend. I can’t imagine moving from a home that you have lived in for over fifty years let alone doing it three weeks after your husband of fifty years died. It was nice to spend so much time with grandma. I helped her unpack a lot of her kitchen stuff while the boys moved furniture and boxes.

I haven’t been home much since I got sick. We went to the little café that I worked in all through high school and had lunch. One of the girls that I don’t know well asked me if I had a stroke… I was annoyed that I had to explain it to her. We went to dinner at the other little restaurant in town and this lady that I have know all of my life (she is far from tactful) blurted out “you look like you have had some dental work done”! It pissed me off to tell the truth, maybe because I don’t like her anyway. I explained to her anyway…

I was cranky by the time we left. But I did enjoy that time with my grandma and mom and brother. My son came too; I think it was important for him to be there with my grandma. I am spent. I hope that I start feeling better this week! I have to go back to work next week. I will probably only go back part time at first. I just run out of energy to quickly and I don’t see that I will be able to keep up with full time right away. I am looking forward to having a reason to get out of the house though! I go to the ENT this coming Friday for another hearing test. I hope that goes well because I feel like I am not hearing well but it could be from the cold I had.